I guess you know if you are a true introvert by how you respond to life’s storms. I tend to duck into my shell and wait for everything to settle. The last few weeks have been a time of hunkering down.
Just four short months ago I received the call that would change my life forever. On Monday morning, my mom went home to be with Jesus. Watching her struggle on this earth before her death was the hardest thing I have ever done. I had spent weeks begging the Lord to heal her and keep her on this earth a little longer. In the end, my will was conformed to His and I begged for His mercy to take her home.
After weeks of pain and suffering, she was ready to go.
We were finally ready to let her go.
This was the first time I had experienced death so personally. I have lost grandparents, but somehow expected them to go. They were older. My mom was 55. She was a beautiful lady, both inside and out. Everyone who knew her loved her and thought she was the sweetest thing. She was sweet.
I have already began to see God working things for good through her death. There have been multiple opportunities we have had to talk with others about the Lord. The message at her funeral was terrific. The pastor laid out the gospel message as he talked about my mom finishing the race.
Through all of this, I realized out firm a grasp I have on this world and the things in this world. Life on this earth is so very short. And then we face eternity. I don’t think our finite minds can truly comprehend eternity. I know I can’t. But I need to try. Because the things I do on this earth have eternal consequences. The things I do with my blog have eternal consequences.
For those who have followed my blog for a while, you may have noticed a change around here. Not a huge change, as I am the same person, doing the same things in my life. I just felt like I wanted to focus on where the Lord is leading me. There are tons of blogs out there that provide information on homesteading, homeschooling, herbalism, healthy eating, etc. I spend time reading many of them as I learn and grow.
But I realized that the main focus of my blog should be where the Lord is leading me. Sometimes that might be homesteading or herbalism. Other times it might just be where He is leading my heart. And while I am anxious to get back to writing about practical matters, I am also thankful for some of the new paths the Lord is leading me on.
One of the things He has put on the heart of my daughter and myself is starting up an online women’s Bible study. I haven’t attended a women’s Bible study in many, many years. There are several reasons for this. One of the reasons, most of the “Bible” studies were actually book studies…reading someone elses book then pulling in a few scriptures to validate the point being made. I don’t think there is anything wrong with reading good books. But if we say we are having a Bible study, let’s study the Bible. Another reason is that I don’t get to spend a whole lot of time with my husband. When he is home, I would prefer to be home as well.
I guess this is why we felt an online Bible study would be great. We can work on our studies at home, when it is convenient. We can then post our thoughts in a forum so that we can discuss our studies and any questions we may have. We will begin our studies in Genesis, then work our way through the New Testament. We will have memory verses to work on as well.
If any of you would like to join us, click the link below.
Last, I want to say thank you to all of my readers and friends. I have had so many of you let me know that you were praying for me during this time and it really means so much. I can honestly say that I have felt the presence of the Lord and His peace during this time. I am going to miss my mom terribly, but her death has made me even more thankful for the hope I have in Jesus Christ!